- Champagne & Rahul -

On the eve of X'mas eve(23 Dec),there was a champagne(Louis de Sacy) appreciation tasting at 101.Rahul was there,he was the organiser.I couldnt recall when was the last time I saw him....it was definitely nice to see him again,only this time things between us feels a little bit different.He found someone....it's been a week now.It's tough to ignore him when he's constantly within my sight really.How dreadful.I wish it was me....regretting now that I didnt take the chance with him.But then again,I was just trying to protect myself.....he's known to be a PLAYER,although in person you really cant deny that he's a nice guy.Really.He sent me back that night which surprised me a bit but thanks Rahul,save my cab money for the day. :) Thinking back,I wonder whether he suddenly changed for the better because of what I've talked to him about when he's subconcious or is it really because of HER?It's simply unbelievable.Either way.......I still think what I said did have an effect too.That even though you've got hurt badly by someone before,there would be someone who would care and love you even more.You just have to give yourself a chance and that other person.I'm a romantic.......so that's why I think that way but when I'm heartbroken,I wouldnt think that positively though.I hope for someone who would catch me when I fall.Who doesnt????Uggh!Whatever.:( I browsed through my previous blog postings and realised that I didnt mention anything about who Rahul was except for the first time I met him more than a month ago isnt it?Most of you must be LOST.Ooooh sorry. :P

When I first drank Dom Perignon 1996 which cost about RM800 per bottle......I was in Cloud 9,I thought it was the greatest thing I've ever drank.Then the rest came.Moet & Chandon,Bollinger,Drappier,Prosecco........and the latest edition is Louis de Sacy.Louis de Sacy Grand Cru & Louis de Sacy Rose which cost about RM400 per bottle and the most fantastic of all,Louis de Sacy Tentation 1986 which cost RM2000 per bottle!It was simply FANTASTIC.Unbelievable.......what else can I say???It's really different.....spectacular.And the best part?The remaining 24 bottles in the world is in my outlet,101.I think we've already found buyers.I feel honoured to be able to taste a little bit of the fine champagne. :P Next on my list: Veuve Cliquot or Krug???Hmmmmm...... :) *HIC*

- Christmas This Year -

I wouldnt say that it's a great or happy one and I wouldnt say that I DID celebrate it either.Everything just passed by without any memories to cherish.It was pretty much expected that Bukit Bintang(the heart of KL where I work) would be packed with people.The modernise graphic X'mas tree & other decorations at my outlet was up about 3 or 4 days before X'mas.The renovation at the Ground Floor has just been completed,it looks very posh.......brightens up the whole place better. :) I wasnt that convinced at first.Now I think it looks COOL.There was reservations for 11 pax and another 6 pax respectively for X'mas eve.I wasnt in the mood at all at first,we didnt even organise a gift exchange thingy.How sad.I have been doing that for the past 3 years and for that amount of years,I've missed out on the X'mas dinner at my cousin's widow place.Ugggh!SAD.Miss the ham,miss the turkey/lamb if there is and obviously miss the wines & sherry!!!She didnt organise one this year.....just got re-married and spending time with her husband.She has been a widow for many years.....my cousin passed away even before I was born,we should feel happy for her to be able to find happiness again.

When I saw Vicky(my colleague) donning the santa hat with two cute white heart shapes on top & listening to the Christmas songs......I feel a bit merry.There was a bit of mood..... :) I went looking for the hat and lucky me,someone gave it to me. There wasnt much people dining as in walk-in guest except for the reservations,it was quite boring but I was helping the chef in the kitchen so I had some things to do and knowledge to learn too. :P The guests left quite early but I just couldnt recall the time now.I didnt even join the X'mas countdown....we just greeted whoever we met in the outlet.Siva gave us each a brooach which is really nice,my manager gave us each a bottle of Belvedere Vodka.That was all.Rahul was supposed to drop by(his gf is in S'pore) so I felt a bit happy at first but later he said he couldnt make it because he left his place late and was stuck in the jam so he headed straight to Havana Club.Silly Rahul!!I wanted very badly to get drunk...it helps in drowning sorrows isnt it?But all I had was a double shot Hennessy Cognac(i dont drink cognac actually but that was the only alcohol available.....i dont drink beer except Stella,if I can & there's only Carlsberg club.no thanks).We ate lobsters,scallops,.....whatever that's left.Vicky wanted to go to Atmosphere and I was supposed to tag along but by the time we finished setting up,no one was in the mood to celebrate or go anywhere.Rahul invited Mohan(my other colleague) to join him,I thought he wouldnt go because of the tiredness.Called Rahul before I left for home,.......I thought he would be on his way home too but he was still there & didnt get to chat for long because his cellphone battery was running low.

That was basically it.I went back to Melaka the next day (on X'mas day).I just stayed at home.My sis was supposed to be back too and I've already planned for a christmas dinner but she cancelled herplans to come back so it was just mum,dad,bro,his gf and me.I cooked roast chicken with potatoes but the chicken took ages get cooked and I got VERY MAD along the way because it didnt turn out as I wanted it to be although it's still delicious in the end! :P There was just no one to go out with....I just needed to rest,lots of it so I just stayed at home the two days that I was back and I went to the lawyer on Tuesday to sign lots of documents.What a Christmas. :(

Moving onto the bar of 101 east........

I've been the barback for about 4 to 5 days now and am enjoying every bit of it.It's been more than 6 months since I was last mixing cocktails and stuffs.I had the chance to do some cocktails the other day......so far my Mojito is rated as PERFECT by my manager,the bartender before this and the customer too.COOL.We're rotating the job area so finally after a long long time of waiting,I'm at the bar.What a dream place.The kitchen area too.

Have stopped going drinking........always heading back home straight after work.I'm on the split shift the whole of this week which is 10am - 2.30pm to 6.30pm - 10.30pm so it's really TAXING!I hate morning shifts....I'm not the morning kind of person you know?Ugggh...... :( Will be on the 4pm - 12am shift next week so that's cool.HEHE.

I forgot to say.....mum,dad,sis and my cousin came by my outlet for dinner last Saturday and it was just so awesome.I was so excited.I finally had the chance to show my parents the place I work and what it's all about.They're pretty cool about things nowadays compared to when I was still in highschool or even college so we can connect better.

My senior brand manager came by this morning and he commented on the way the bar looks.He thinks it's messy but one thing people have to understand is that the bar area is very restricted.Contrained place.Uggh!I have to find a solution soon.I need the designers from IKEA to give me some ideas I guess?I think they're very good at using space to the fullest.Very cool "save space" concept the use for their furniture designs.Oh well. :(

Oh yes.....I forgot to say.Chris called my home 2 days ago and my housemate was not at home then so I got to chat with him for a bit so that's cool.We're just busy with each other's stuff so we're not that connected these days.It must be very cold in HK now,I miss all that.DAMN. :(

I takes me ages to finish the blog on my S'pore trip.I have been busy with events at my outlet,partying and just trying to do what is right and to get a chance to rest.I'm not 100% cured yet......I dont know whether it's because of the alcohols or because I just didnt go to the doctor from day 1.I've been going out for the last 2 weeks,went to Mood Swings(a salsa place)....I'm always amazed when I see people do the salsa,I wish I can be like them one day.My colleague(Mohan) had his b'day pre-party at our outlet the other day......I organised the food,just glad that it was just nice although I wouldnt say it's very delicious....it would have been better if there's a proper kitchen. :) Just too bad I guess.I was the cashier on that day so it was pretty screwed up when a last minute customer came and opened a bottle.By the time I joined everyone,it was just so short. To make things worse,Rahul came early.All the time was wasted. :( We went to Thai club after that,not that interesting but we had a private place upstairs so it's a perfect view to see people dancing below.........not great dancers I would say.I started imitating the way those people danced,it was pretty hilarious.I got to know two new gal friends,one is a pole dancer!How cool.All of us(4 gals) later took on the stage,the podium.....it was so fun.Rahul just wasnt in the mood,it was sad.I didnt even get closed to being HIGH or tipsy.Good Becky. :P

- Back from S'pore -

Dear mates,

I was actually back from S'pore at 1am on Mon morning.Have lots to write about my S'pore trip and am sick now.Dry sore throat and fever.......so I need to get well soon.Hang on there mates.Thanks.

- Off to SINGAPORE -

Dear friends,

Havent had much things to write for the past few days.Life has been on a slow lane.Going to S'pore tonight,.....will be back on Sunday and definitely will have lots to write about! :P Chris is taking care of my accommodation but up till now,I have yet to get a confirmation and the info on which hotel it is.Oh boy,......am I in trouble?I think Flora forgot to send me an email or call me.She called the other day to get my name as in the passport.Let's hope it's settled.I just need to get to S'pore first.They should be in S'pore by today.Hear from me soon.Cheers to all. :)

Here I Am.

This week is a pretty crazy week.......work in Mon,public holiday on Tue,work on Wed,public holiday on Thurs....here I am,working on Fri(it's a public holiday for other people),working tomorrow and then it's off day on Sun!What a weird week. :P Tuesday was Deepavali(a celebration for Indians),yesterday and today is the New Year's day of the Muslims.They celebrate for a month actually. :) Managed to go to a friend's house to eat on Deepavali(dried mutton and chicken curry with rice, vegetable and cookies) and yesterday I went to two houses,one an Indian(Mohan) friend's house(dried chicken curry,porkchop,tuna cutlet with rice and white wine) and the other a Malay friend's house(beef rendang,chicken rendang,rice in blocks - how to you explain "nasi impit" in English?,curry mee and cookies).AWESOME!!!! :P But I didnt over eat really.

And there's a new friend which I was introduced to.His name is Rahul. :) Nice guy.A so-called Northern Indian who is fair, doesnt know how to eat with his fingers(traditional way for the Indian and Malays),cant stand eating too spicy food and is a supplier for wines but loves to drink beer - Guinness Stout to be exact! :P Haha.....what a joker. :)

Called Chris's mum in the afternoon......she now knows that I'm able to go to S'pore so we're all excited about it. :) Had to reach her before she leaves HK,either today or tomorrow.They board planes like a bus so there's no fix plan.Last minute booking.Chatted with Chris at night,he's taking care of my hotel expenses so my problem is solved.I just need to get there. :P That is all now,......feeling sleepy.KL is like a sleepy hollow today,there's hardly any cars or anyone.I was late to work,.....or rather I reach on the dot.We're required to reach half an hour before duty actually.There was just no taxi around,I was just lucky enough to bum into the bus and took the lrt and monorail.......in the end,it's worse than just taking the taxi but I had no choice.

A caucasian guy came in to check out our outlet and I was pretty surprised.Our first potential customer for the day.He decided to stay on and have his lunch with two bottles of Hoegaarden.......a nice guy.His name is Gordon.Another new person I met. :) Then there's a couple who's still in the bar right now.At least there's some business today. :)

- What is Love -

this question will always haunt anyone.......it's really TRUE,i mean if you were to tell me that you never wondered "what is love"....I think you're only kidding yourself! :P it will definitely give you a slap on the face....everyone's face to be exact.a friend answered this question the other day.what is love? : love last when the lust last got it?i think......anyone who has been there would agree on this one.

i came upon a posting in the bulletin board and here are a few of the many quotes which i find so true.....it's like "been there,done that" or rather in my case i would say "been there,SAID that". :P here it goes................

1)When you love someone,don't expect that person to love you back the same amount.
One of you will be ahead, the other behind.It's either you catch up or the other
waits - it applys to all girls

2)Never be afraid to fall in love !It may hurt a lot,it may give you aches and
pains,but if you don't follow your heart,in the end you will cry even more for not
giving love a chance. - i always live with this line,....that's why I've
fallen so many times.i dont think i'm silly,......i'm just giving myself a
chance

3)I'm sorry if you can't love me the way you loved the one before me,so i'll let you
go to find him/her and hope someday you'll see that the one true love you're
looking for was the one who set you free.We're always trying to catch the
attention of the one we think we love,we hardly notice the one we're really
looking for was just there. -the first line applys to john,the second line
applys to anybody

4)Love is like standing on wet cement,the longer you stay the harder it is to
leave...and you can never go without leaving your prints behind. - i just
said it to john the other day!isnt it john?

5)True love hears what is not spoken,and understands what is not explained,for love
doesn't work in the mouth,nor the mind,but in the heart.

6)I like you because you're my friend,and because you are my friend i care,and
because i care, i love you.I don't love you because you are my friend,i love you
because i do! - this applys to john(present) and it applys to tim(past)
too

7)it's better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose that someone
you love with your useless pride. - this applys to all synical people on
this planet.....you know who you are!

8)It's hard for two people to love each other when they live in two different
worlds...but when these two worlds collide and become one,that's what you call....
magic! -to those who always wondered how I can fall in love with Chris
for "that"(3 yrs) long....this is one answer that is possible

I wish I can say this....but if I do,it's just a CONTRADICTION.Isnt it? "I can't choose who i'm gonna love,but i also can't just love who chooses to love me... and you can't blame me in choosing to love you as much as i can't blame you for not learning to love me.

TO ALL GIRLS,LISTEN UP!!!! The most cruel thing a guy could do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall...!!! *Damn bloody true*

- My Yesterday -

I think I wrote a pretty long blog yesterday. :) This was meant to be written yesterday as well but time didnt permit.I'm feeling well again now........2 days ago,I was really SICK!It's really obvious when becky is sick.......the bubbly girl would suddenly turn so quiet like a mouse,her smile would be gone and she would stand at one corner to stay away from the air-cond and be a hermit so other people wont be affected,she would babble when she speak and her eyes would be like snoopy eyes because all she thinks of is to SLEEP and still,she refuses to go to the doctor because it's just a waste of money....she's immune to all the medications.She would also feel like a cat,would love to be pampered but unfortunately this time around,....there just isnt anyone around the corner.I managed to go back early,.......my remedy this time: 3 tablets of Clarinase in a day,Panadol acti-fast from HK and Robitussin honey lemon cough drops,downed everything and wore a sweater to sleep and hibernate.I changed shift with Vicky and only came in to work in the afternoon the next day so I had the whole morning to continue sleeping.That was how I got cured this time.THANKFULLY TO GOD!

I really forgot what I did yesterday.....I think I did email Chris in HK to inform him that I wont be able to go to S'pore for the conference.CONFIRMED. :( Becky feels so sad......no going to Outback S'pore for Cinnamon Oblivion(vanilla ice cream with cinnamon apples and pecans),no clubbing in S'pore with my japanese designer friends,Chris and family,wont be meeting my other HK friends,no going to Takashimaya for japanese ramen and most of all,I cant experience the feeling of being in the conference and it would be the first time I'm missing the IdN conference since 2002!Oh no.... :(

I called Chris in HK,managed to talk to him for a bit and Fatima(his mum) so happen is in HK too.I miss her heaps!We chatted away,....a lot to talk about and she's really happy to know that I'm doing very well......working for a prominent company.Didnt expect Chris to tell her. :P Hehe.We miss each other a lot but right now....it's really impossible to meet up.Chris wouldnt allow that and so does she.They really want me to concentrate on building my career right now.They wont go away.......they're all based in HK currently,Jonathan is helping out in IdN too....Laurence is currently in S'pore for a short trip and they would only go back to Sydney for a short holiday.So I guess I might change my TAIPEI trip next year to be a HK trip????Gosh.... :P Or maybe I'll just do a few hours of stopover in HK,go on board Cathay Pacific to Taipei.....they would stop in HK first...either I take the last flight from HK to Taipei or take the last flight from HK to M'sia after going to Taipei.....I think that would be a better choice.Maybe might crash at Chris's place for a few days since the whole family is in HK.Mum(Chris's mum) would allow I guess. :P

I really feel so much better after talking to Fatima.She's such a remarkable lady.It's really cool when she's around........we can talk about anything under the sun,from Chris to going clubbing together.Haha.....that's how cool she is REALLY!I miss all that.